Where Are Your Goals?

Imagine my shock when my roommate asked me that.

She didn’t say it directly, but the question was loud in the air. Where are your goals?

If you read my very realistic 2025 goals post from January, you’ll remember that one of my big ones was simple: eat more fruit. I didn’t want to conquer the world. I just wanted to eat better!!

And for the first few months, I did it. I was committed.

Then somewhere along the line… life happened. Now? I’m down to like 3 fruits a month. On a good month.

So when she asked why I wasn’t eating fruit anymore, my brain short-circuited. Because honestly?

I forgot. Completely.

I laughed it off — buttt let’s not lie, there was nothing funny about realizing I made promises to myself, publicly, and I’m failing at them… also publicly.

That night, I lay in bed and started scrolling through the goals I set.

Just to check. You know, just in case I was still crushing it in secret.

I wasn’t.

Turns out most of my goals died somewhere around March. Which is wild because that’s actually a personal record. Usually they don’t even survive February. So, maybe… growth?

But then I thought, What if the things I planned didn’t work out, but I’ve still been growing — just in ways I didn’t predict?

So I made a list of things I was proud of this year. Things that brought me joy, even if they weren’t on my vision board and some of them didn’t go as planned, but nonetheless they made me feel good at that moment:

I got a raise at one of my jobs — and even though I don’t work there anymore, I remember how proud I felt.

I quit that same job. Yeah, the one that gave me a raise. Turns out, a higher paycheck doesn’t fix a soul-sucking role. I was anxious all the time, and even though I was scared to leave, eventually I did and I was so proud. I felt like my boss needed me and me leaving will disappoint him. Not minding that I was not fulfilled in the role. So, I’m so proud I left!

I landed a new, better-paying job! (Which, plot twist: turned out to be a disaster 😭😂. I got fired shortly after I quit the old one. Life was lifing.) But I was so proud of myself!

I got the best grades of my academic life. I thought last semester would break me, but it gave me the academic validation I didn’t know I needed and felt really good!

I gave myself grace. Old me would’ve spiraled into a mess of self-blame. But new me? She knows life is hard, and she’s just doing her best. And sometimes trying to survive is enough.

I’m slowly getting my spark back. And honestly? That alone is enough to be proud of. These past couple of months I’ve been feeling more like myself and I’m loving it 😊.

I started a Pinterest account that’s blowing up!

Yes! I started an outfit inspo Pinterest account and I’ve been getting thousands of views! I can’t wait to monetize it. Don’t ask me for my handle— I won’t tell. I want to keep this one to myself!

So yeah, I might not have followed through on all my goals. I have no excuse, really.

But I also learned that life is still worth living, even when nothing’s going according to plan.

And funnily enough, the things I thought would make me happiest — like getting a raise or a “dream job” — didn’t.

Life keeps humbling me, but it’s also showing me who I am underneath all the plans. And I kinda like her.

Happy new month 😘