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Coffee & Stars's avatar

I downloaded tiktok right when it first came out so my bond was really deep. It was my everything. But it started to take a toll on me and I tried to change my fyp and everything, being in such denial that it was toxic for me because it brought me so much joy and comfort before. But now that everyone is on it, it's not a silly dancing app any longer but an app that lowers my self-esteem and makes me depressed (like Instagram did and I deleted that with ease because I didn't have any real connection). I always bashed Instagram but always defended tiktok. I don't anymore. I deleted the app and went back so many times. But it's gone for a good couple months now and I don't regret it. It wasn't good for me and made me depressed and unworthy. Eventually I stopped missing it. I still didn't delete my account because it was years and years of saved memories but did deactivate it. Sometimes we just gotta let go of things that no longer have value to us and your writing shows it so beautifully. I love the toxic relationship comparison, I hadn't ever thought of it that way before.

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Faridah's avatar

You are right! I deactivated my account again recently and a few days ago, I realized I didn’t even remember what TikTok was. I didn’t miss it at all and I’m doing so much better mentally.

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_pinterest girl💕🇵🇸's avatar

This was me and Instagram too, chai! AlhamdulliLlah

You write soo well, and we have the same name😚

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Faridah's avatar

Thank youuu ☺️❤️

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_pinterest girl💕🇵🇸's avatar

You’re welcomeee

You’ve been off?

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Faridah's avatar

Something like that

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_pinterest girl💕🇵🇸's avatar

Ohkayy

Hope you’re okay?

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Faridah's avatar

I’m feeling much better. Thank youu :)))

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Aishat Tola's avatar

This is such an awesome... The expressions are immaculate 🤭

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Faridah's avatar

Thank youuu

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Iwaju's avatar

This is soo beautiful, you spoke for us all. I've wanted to delete my tiktok app lots of times, but then again, it's an app I also learn a lot from. So instead, I set a time limit for it, and after that it'll not be accessible for me until the next day.

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Faridah's avatar

I’ve set so many time limits I still cannot seem to stop. I’ve officially deactivated it.

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mentally in a rom-com's avatar

This is such a beautiful read! I even deleted my socials recently, TikTok is way too addictive. Tried pulling an all‑nighter for exams, but ended up scrolling instead 😭 Clearly, something needed to change

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Faridah's avatar

It’s worse when you actually post on there. The constant need to check your notifications is so addicting 😭😭

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Faveey's world 🙈's avatar

I loved this🥹this is exactly how I feel most times

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Faridah's avatar

Thank youuuu

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By_Ishat's avatar

Awwww🥺

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Faridah's avatar

☺️☺️

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Rugi 🌹's avatar

This was really lovely writing. Felt like a real cinematic lover sending the breakup text 🥺

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Faridah's avatar

That was the vibe I was going for 🥹🥹. Thank youuuu❤️

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Layinka's avatar

Faridah, Tiktok no worth you, but olohun you bad !! Please can i share this on my linkedin your voice will be heard and live will surely give you what you deserve.

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Faridah's avatar

Right?😭 I deserve better 😂. As long as I’m credited properly, you can share it.

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Leena S.'s avatar

WOAHH WHATTTTT??? All this for a 9-5?? They don't deserve you!! This was too good. Swept ME off my feet, in the best wayyy.

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Faridah's avatar

Awwwn🥹🥹 thank youuu so much! I’m flattered 🥹.

But I still hope they get back to me tho 😭😂

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Leena S.'s avatar

hahahaha, I get it, I’ve been tryna hear back from companies too 😭

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Faridah's avatar

It’s so frustrating 😭

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